The Hit List - The monsters under my bed are in my head

Every Saturday in the ’70’s you could find me with my siblings glued to the television set for another episode of Shock Theatre, a series with classic horror films such as Dracula and the Mummy. I always rooted for the monsters in those flicks. My favorite was Frankenstein, who seemed to want a friend and always got screwed because the humans were afraid of him. That pissed me off, every time.

While I found Frankenstein to be harmless, I knew that fear could lead to dangerous outcomes.

In my own life, it rears its ugly head from time to time. Every time I decide to level up in any area of my life, all the old monsters crawl out of the woodwork. A few are real such as the energy vamps who want to drain my fairy blood. I’ve got plenty of garlic for that. But most of the monsters are in my head.

The stories I tell myself are wild, filled with plot twists and scary developments that make me want to hide in a closet, never to be seen again. It’s a relentless loop and one that takes every fiber of my being to banish.

These monsters weren’t created in some cool, dusty lab with mad scientists. Instead, they came from people in my life.

Folks who said:

You can’t do that.
Who do you think you are?
Women aren’t supposed to…
You’re not ________ enough for that. (Insert pretty, smart, rich, etc.)
What will people think?
Don’t outshine your brother.
You’re acting too big for your britches.

and so on.

It’s hard to beat those demons back when they decide to rear up, just as I’m about to cross an important milestone. In fact, they are downright distracting.

They don’t need to be. Dark thoughts are like Frankenstein, terrifying at first but once you look underneath the surface, you see that they want your attention. They need your love. When you befriend those monsters, they become your allies. After all, they are only trying to keep you safe. But safe isn’t going to take you to the next level. Risk is necessary.

I’ve got new thresholds to cross and mountains to climb. Fear isn’t coming along for this ride. I’m giving my demons a hug and a lollypop – and putting them back under the bed. Goodnight, monsters.

Is it Caturday yet?

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